I'm 8w today! 2 whole months! I took my first bump pic today. I think I'm showing already and my boobs are super tiny! I've never been very well endowed, but when Lexi weaned they shrunk down to a new low. I'm barely filling out my pre pregnancy bras. I thought that when I got pregnant again they would go back up, but no such luck yet.
Anyways, one more week until my next u/s. I'm getting nervous. I go back and forth between feeling like things will be ok and like it's all going to end next week.
Things that make me nervous:
My only constant symptom is fatigue
I don't think my MS episode was really MS, I think I had a stomach bug
I don't "feel" pregnant
No mild cramping
This feels like my 2nd pregnancy
Late O
Things that make me feel better:
My growing bloat bump
Things falling into place with monitoring and progesterone
Constant fatigue
Hungry all the time, but oddly not gaining weight
Cravings
So, I'm nervous because I've had so little symptoms. I know no two pregnancies are the same, but I had so many symptoms with Lexi from the start. With my second pregnancy, though, I made it to 11w but our baby never grew past 6w. I kept waiting to feel pregnant, to feel different some how, but I felt pretty normal... Just like I do now. I also O'd late on cd22. My first BFP I O'd on cd20, and BFP#2 I O'd on cd21. But with Lexi I O'd early on cd17. I've always been worried about my egg quality Oing late.
I don't think that what I thought was MS the other week really was. Normally with morning sickness you feel better when you eat. I felt better when I didn't eat. I threw up at least a dozen time, I only threw up once with Lexi. TMI: I had about three days of diarrhea. It was a struggle to keep anything down or in. I had lots of indigestion and intestinal cramping. I lost 4lbs because I could eat anything. It was a pretty miserable week! So, looking back I think it was a stomach bug, not a pregnancy symptom.
I'm in a FB group with some old PgAL moms. A lot of them have already successfully had baby #2. Well, one of the newly pregnant ladies asked today how cramping was in the first few weeks the second time around. Every lady who responded said that cramping was way worse the second time. I've had little to no cramping :/ A couple sore minuets here and there, but really minimal. With Lexi I had tons of cramping.
But the things that make me fell better about this pregnancy... It seems like everything had fallen into place. I got pregnant on my testing/ monitoring cycle, so my doctor knew that I O'd a week "late" (cd22). So when I went in for my first u/s, it was no surprise I was measuring a week "behind". Also I was able to get on progesterone before my BFP this time.
I've had a ton of bloat since 4w, and it keeps growing. It makes me hopeful that there's really something in there growing! I've been super tired since very early on. At first I thought it was because I went cold turkey on caffeine, but I wasn't that much of a caffeine addict :) Like even right now, I could totally go for a nap! I'm also hungry all the time and keep craving roast beef, chicken, and burgers. I'm normally a very minimal meat person. I like chicken, but I'll only do red meat if I have to. I' also not gaining weight like I normally do. I usually have no problem at aaaallllll gaining wight. If I eat the wrong thing at the wrong time of day, I'll wake up 2lbs heavier in the morning! Well, I lost 4lbs during my "morning sickness" and have only been able to gain 2 back. Totally the opposite from Lexi pregnancy when I was up 10lbs before the end of the 1st tri!!
So in short, I'm nervous. But I'm really trying not to worry until I have a reason to worry. Right now, everything is in my head. I know that plenty of women have O'd late and had perfectly healthy babies. I know that plenty of women have not had MS and had perfectly healthy babies. So, for today I am pregnant, and I love my baby.
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
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