A Letter to My December Baby

My Sweet, Sweet Baby,

Today is our due date and I can't believe it's here already. I still miss you so much. Today I should be meeting you. Today I should be falling in love more and more with you. Today you should have come into my life and and I in to yours. Even though I can't hold you today, I am comforted by the fact that our heavenly Father is holding you now and forever.

When your daddy and I found out about you, I was nervous but excited. I thought, "This will be our baby. This is it!" I was so looking forward to meeting you, and loving you, and sharing everything in life with you. My mind filled with images of what a beautiful little girl I know you would have been. I imagined your sweet smile and beautiful curly hair bouncing as you left for you first day of school. I imagined you gliding down our stairs, dressed up like a princess to go off to your prom. I imagined you as a glowing bride walking down the aisle on your wedding day. I had so many dreams for you.

I was devastated when your Daddy and I found out that you were gone. My world crumbled around me. Every dream that I had for the future vanished with you. Even after the doctor said you had left, you held on to Mommy so tight, and I did everything I could to save you. I didn't want to let you go, even though I knew I had to. "All I could do was love you hard, and let you go."

I think of you and your brother everyday. I miss you terribly, especially today. I am grateful, though, for the time we did have. I am so blessed to have been your Mommy. You will always be in my heart. I miss you.

I love you.
Mommy