Today is my Someday

This is the day I've been waiting for for two and a half years. This is the day I've been dreaming of. My daughter was born today. This is the best day of my life. I look at her and it's all worth it. I'm completely and totally in love!

She has a full head of dark brown hair, a cute little turned up nose, and pretty little lips, just like her momma. She has long fingers and toes, big feet, and cute ears, just like her daddy. She truly is the best of both of us. She makes these cute little squeaks and coos. It just melts my heart!

I'm in love!

Lots of Love,
KJsbabe

The Count Down Begins

In 40 hours I will have an outside baby! I can't believe we're so close. KJ and I have been dreaming of this for two and a half years now. We decided to start trying for a baby way back in January of 2010 and started actively trying in February. It was a much longer and harder journey than we ever anticipated, but here we are, hours away from meeting our daughter. It was worth it. All of the heartache, all of the unbearably sad days, every BFN, every tear. It was worth it.

After waiting all of this time, you'd think I'd feel ready to have this baby! I'm very ready, but very nervous. On the one hand I can't wait to give birth and get this little girl out of me. She's getting incredibly heavy and I want my body back! On the other hand, though, I'm worried I won't know how to take care of her. What if I have trouble breast feeding? What if I mess up and don't feed her often enough? What if I have no idea why she's crying and can't get her to stop? What if I'm a complete mess physically and mentally and totally fail at caring for her? What if I'm an awful mother? I suddenly have the urge to keep her baking for as long as possible!!! Don't take her out yet! It's a big scary world out here and she's just a helpless little thing. I'm scared for the both if us.

"In a little while surely you'll be mine. In a little while I'll be there. In a little while this hurt will hurt no more. I'll be home, love.

Slow down my beating heart. Slowly, slowly, love...

See that girl? That girl, she's mine."

Nerves aside, I could be more excited and happy to meet my daughter. 40 hours and counting...

Lots of Love,
KJsbabe

A post for Bumps

I've been slacking on my bump pic sharing, so here they all are!

April 13 - 27w5d



May 12 (KJ's birthday) 31w6d We were coming home after a wedding




May 13 (my birthday!) 32w - 8 Month bump
   


 May 18 - 32w5d



June 1 - 34w5d
 


June 10 - 36w 9 months!



Lots of Love,

KJsbabe

We have an Eviction Date!

We have an eviction date!

Yesterday I had the first of my weekly apps. I had my strep B test and my first internal check (fun, fun). I'm not dilated at all and Lexi is still breach. *le sigh* It doesn't look like she's going to flip on her own, so my doctor scheduled me for a c-section. We go in bright and early on Friday, June 29. Yikes!! I'm going to have a baby by the end of the month! Holy cow!

My last day of work will be the 27. KJ and I (mostly me) have to go in the hospital on the 28 for a "c-section meeting". I guess we get to meet the anesthesiologist and talk about what all is going to happen. I guess from reading online I get the general gist of what will happen, so I feel pretty prepared already without the meeting.

I'm not really looking forward to the recovery. I was really hoping to get back to running ASAP, but it looks like I will have to wait until 6w pp. I'm bummed, but I'll do whatever I have to do to get Lexi here safely. It's already been 10 months, what's another 6 weeks. At least I can start dieting right away! I don't want to keep this weight on any longer then I have to. I was pretty over weight in college, and I lost 35lbs the year I graduated and got married. I refuse to go through life uncomfortable, unhappy, and just plain fat. I'm going to get my body back.

Lots of Love,

KJsbabe

Prepping for Alexis

I just love using her name! KJ and I (well, mostly me!) have been in full nesting mode lately. I have this need to get everything done *now*.

My mom had a second mini shower for me on Saturday to help fill in the necessities. It was very helpful! We got quite a few useful things: bath tub, hand breast pump, bottles, socks, spoons, and a carrier, just to name a few. My Grandma also gave us money to buy the stroller with! I'm so excited!

As I mentioned before, the past few weekends I've been yard saleing baby clothes like crazy. I *think* I have a a pretty good stash built up now. I know I need more 12m sleepers and probably more stretchy pants (to accommodate a fluffy but), but other then that, I think I'm good. I also found a second pack n play at a yard sale that we'll use for at MIL house. It's in great condition and was a steal at $25!

KJ and I went shopping on Sunday to fill in the rest of what we need and to use my registry completion coupons. I think we did pretty well. I also made orders on Amazon, Target, and BRU. We needed a second base for the car seat and it was only available online at Target. The breast pump I wanted was out of stock at the BRU store and it was $30 less online. The only thing we didn't get were baby gates, but I have a 20% off coupon that's good for next week, so we'll get those then. Everything else is being shipped! I love getting packages in the mail!

Here are some pictures from the shower:

A blanket made by my sister


Some sleepers from Grandpa


A carrier


A vaporizer


A blanket made by my aunt


Bottles


Bathtub


Ice cream cake!






Lots of Love,

KJsbabe

Happy June!

So, since I'm due the first week in July, there's a definite possibility that I might have a baby by the end of the month! Yikes! Where has the time gone?? I still have so much to do!

I've been making lists of all the things I feel I need to get done in the next few weeks so I can feel mostly ready. Somethings are important and others ready aren't, but they're all on the list anyhow. When I get stressed I make lists and it helps me feel like I'm making progress.

Stuff to get done:

Pack hospital bag (this is my plan for tonight)
Find a take home outfit
Wash bathroom valance (it's dusty and I stare at it every time I go in there!)
Clean kitchen ceiling (also dusty)
Weed driveway
Send Amanda's b-day card out (her b-day is tomorrow, oops)
Organize guest room (it's become our catch all for baby things we won't need right a way)
Wash diapers (I have to prep some hemp inserts I bought)
Wash rugs
Find a glider rocker
Clean off dresser (my bedroom dresser is a mess)
Set up pack n play in the bedroom (this will require some rearranging)
Make an Amazon order (still waiting on my registry completion coupon for this. Should get it next week)

Then there's the list of necessities that we still need to get. My mom is having a second shower for me on the 9th. In theory, it's supposed to help with these things, but as we saw with the first shower (50 pink onesies, what?!) I'm not holding my breath.

Things I still need:

Extra car seat base (we bought the car seat last weekend because I had a freak out over the fact that we didn't have it yet)
Changing pad and cover
Waterproof mattress cover (have one, but would like a back up)
Bottles (don't have any!)
Baby gates
Sheets for pack n play
Pacifiers
Swaddler (have one, but would like a back up)
Breast pump
Breast milk storage items
Bath tub
Sippy cups
Thermometer
"baby proofing" stuff


I've been yard saleing pretty much every Saturday since the shower on the look out for clothes and gear for MIL's house. My ultimate goal is to yard sale all the clothes we'll need for LG's first year. I know there will be things we'll need here and there, but if I can get the bulk bought now, that would be awesome. I've found a good amount, but there's always something left.

Clothes what I need:

0-3
Kimono shirts

3-6
2 sleepers
4 one piece outfits

6-9
3 one peice outfits

12mo
4 sleepers


Lots of Love,

KJsbabe