Happy 7 Months to My Cupcake!

Over half way to one year! Lexi is looking less and less like an infant and more like a little girl every day. Some times I look at her and think, how did you get so big?? Her big milestones this month were saying her first word, "Dada" and holding onto the baby gate and standing by herself. KJ and I are trying to get her to crawl, but no cigar yet. She keeps lunging forward, face plants, and then cries. She doesn't really get the whole catching yourself thing yet. She'll get there, though.

KJ was very excited for Lexi to say Dada first. The week before she started saying it she was saying Baw-baw a lot and I thought for sure it would turn into Mama. She gave up on that though and said Dada instead. She doesn't say it purposefully yet, like she doesn't look at KJ and call him that, but we're still counting it as her first word.

Some little things, her hair keeps growing. There's almost enough now that I can put a little barrette in it. She's starting to get too big for her 6m clothes. She's filling out her 6-9m ones much better. After the holiday break we started adding in a second meal of solids at lunch time. We've also introduced a sippy cup. She doesn't really get it yet, but we're working on it.

Lots of Love,
KJsbabe

My Sweet May Baby

Dear Little One,

Today is the second anniversary of your due date. Today we should be celebrating your second birthday. The house should be decorated and a cake baking in the oven. I should be making up favor bags and games for you to play with your little friends. You should be running around the house with too much excitement for you little body to handle in anticipation for your birthday party. I should be thinking back to the day you were born with fond memories.

Instead, we are apart today, and it still breaks my heart. Instead, I am thinking back to the amazing moment when I found out about you and the wonderful week daddy and I had with you. It should have been a lifetime longer, though. I miss you.

Your youngest sister gave me a "Mom" necklace for Christmas this year. It's nice to finally be called what you have called me all along... Mommy.

You will always be my first baby. You were the one that started it all. Know that I will always love you and I think of you often. You will never be forgotten. Today and always, you will be in my heart. I pray that Jesus gives you an extra big hug and kiss from me. I know you are well taken care of in His arms.

I love you. I miss you.
Mommy

It's 6 Flucking Degrees Out

Why on Earth have I not moved south yet? Why do I keep on subjecting myself to "winter" year after year?? What is wrong with me???

I feel like I'm functioning with half a brain. I have been so forgetful lately. Wet bags, bibs, feeding the cat, mailing out packages, putting dinner in the crockpot... The list goes on. Forgetting the packages thing was today. I sold a few things on eBay and had them all set to mail out today... And they're sitting on the kitchen counter. So instead of going to see Lexi on my lunch break like I normally do, I have to run home to get them. Sucks. I need a vacation.

KJ and I have started working out again. When the weather gets bad I get bad about getting my but moving, so I really hadn't done anything since Thanksgiving. KJ joined the Planet Fitness that just opened up and I've been running on our treadmill in the basement. We both need to get back into shape and loose some holiday weight. I love running... But right now all I want to do is sleep... More on that later.

At work they keep moving around my pumping room and it's getting annoying. I'm on my third room since Christmas. They're remodeling the downstairs area where I sit, so I get that we're running out of places, but I wish it wasn't such a hassle. April can't come soon enough! Physical remodeling isn't the only "remodeling" going on either. They have been letting a lot of people go lately and I'm sort of wondering when it's going to be my turn.

I made a smoothie this morning with yogurt, blackberries, and banana and added in some brewers yeast. It tastes like awful, fruity beer. I need to buy stock in fenungreek. I've been taking 3 capsules every 3 hours for the past 4 days... No noticeable change in my supply yet. I feel like it's a constant struggle to keep it up. I've only been averaging 6-7 oz during the day at work. I've started to rotate my freezer stash, so there's not as much pressure to pump exactly enough every day, but I'm not putting back as much as I'm taking out. I know it's going to catch up to me sooner or later...

Come on April...

Lots of Love,
KJsbabe

We Have Set a Date...

For me to quit my job!! Over New Years KJ and I had a serious talk about me becoming a SAHM and what we need to do to get to that point. We decided that if I continue to work until the end of April, putting my pay check into savings all the while, we should be in a good position. We'll have enough to do some fix-up things around the house to get it in sellable condition and hopefully be able to move later in the year.

It feels so good to have a end in sight! I have something to work towards now. I have a goal. I'm already looking up fun activities and outings Lexi and I can do together this summer. We'll go to the park a lot and I just discovered this indoor play place for kids just up the street from us. It's for kids 1+ and they have different play groups according to age that you can join. I'll be signing her up on June 30th! I'm so excited!

Lots of Love,
KJsbabe