Today is one year since my first EDD. I'm so incredibly grateful for the LO growing inside of me, but I will anyways love and miss my angels. This is for you, sweet little ones. Mommy loves you.
Never Let Go
Hanson
Just lay down, and let your worry sleep
Don't think now, of waters dark and deep
Cuz you know that I love you and never let go
And you know that I love you forever
Love you and never let go
Just cry out, yeah I've cried those tears before
Well I can feel it now, as your tear drops hit the floor
'Cus you know that I love you and never let go
And you know that I love you forever
Love you and never let go
Yes I love you and never let go
You don't have to ask me do I love you
As I hold you it says how much I do
I'm yours until forever is though
Every time I stand before you
I know I'd lay my life down for you
I'll never let, I'd never let go
Just lay down, put your worry thoughts to bed
As slumber pulls you down, let my shoulder rest your head
'Cus you know that I love you and never let go
Yeah you know that I love you forever
Love you and never go
Yes I love you and never let go
Never let go...
I'll never let go...
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Friday, January 27, 2012
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Four Months
I am four months pg!! Woo hoo! We hit 16 weeks on Sunday (1-22). I definitely think I popped over the weekend. There's no more hiding this belly! I'm officially in maternity clothes, which is exciting. I feel like this means I'm REALLY pg now.
I'm having some jeans issues, though. I bought one pair of the secret panel jeans in a medium from Motherhood. The panel part fits well and I like it because it smooths everything out, but the bottom part tends to sag. They're like stretchy jeans that rely on your thighs to keep them up, which I didn't realize. I don't like tight things on my thighs, so I purposely bought them a size bigger to be more loose and comfortable in that area. So, while they're comfortable to sit in, they sag when I stand and walk around. To fix this problem, I thought I'd get a pair of the under-the-belly jeans. So, I went back to Motherhood and got a small pair. These ones fit really well in the legs, not tight on my thighs, my but looks good, and they don't sag. However, the elastic band part is really tight. Like super uncomfortable, hello-muffin-top-I-haven't-seen-you-in-five-years tight. They were a little tight in the store when I tried them on, but I thought they'd stretch out like the other pair did. I can't win! I'm sitting here, frustrated and uncomfortable, and I can't wait to get home and take these damn things off. I almost want to take the two pairs apart and put the panel part on the small legs. They only thing that's stopping me though, is if it doesn't work the way I want it to, I don't want to ruin $60 worth of jeans (that I paid full price for!). I just want to be comfortable and look good. Is that too much to ask?? Enough about my clothing problems.
Two weekends ago we "came out" and it was the scariest thing I've ever done in my life. It went well and I wasn't expecting a bad reaction, but I was so scared that we'd tell and then something would go wrong. I've definitely gotten my money's worth out of the doppler! I used it every day for a week after we told everyone. So nerve wracking! We gave each of the grandmas-to-be a picture and a count down calendar.
We told my parents first and both my mom and dad were very happy for us. This will be the first grandchild on this side. Next we told FIL and KJ's step mom and we got the best reaction from her. She was over the moon thrilled! They were just so happy for us and it made me feel great! This will be the first grandchild on this side, too. Step mom said she's already stared on a baby quilt. Last we told MIL and KJ's step dad. Now, if you remember from previous posts, step dad is a real douchcanoe. MIL opened up the picture first and didn't really get it so she showed it to step dad. The first thing that came out of he mouth was, "Well that can't be (SIL) because she's not married." Ok, #1 what does being married have to do with having a baby? And #2 why the hell would we be giving them a picture of SIL????? He's such an idiot! Anyways, once MIL understood what we were telling her she was very happy. I wish we could have just told her by herself, but what's done is done. Everyone knows now, we even came out on FB, and LO still has a HB, so things are going well.
Here's our four month bump picture. First we tried going with snowflakes for January, and even though Colby-Jack made it a pretty cute picture, it looked silly. KJ suggested a scarf instead, and I thought that looked much better.
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
I'm having some jeans issues, though. I bought one pair of the secret panel jeans in a medium from Motherhood. The panel part fits well and I like it because it smooths everything out, but the bottom part tends to sag. They're like stretchy jeans that rely on your thighs to keep them up, which I didn't realize. I don't like tight things on my thighs, so I purposely bought them a size bigger to be more loose and comfortable in that area. So, while they're comfortable to sit in, they sag when I stand and walk around. To fix this problem, I thought I'd get a pair of the under-the-belly jeans. So, I went back to Motherhood and got a small pair. These ones fit really well in the legs, not tight on my thighs, my but looks good, and they don't sag. However, the elastic band part is really tight. Like super uncomfortable, hello-muffin-top-I-haven't-seen-you-in-five-years tight. They were a little tight in the store when I tried them on, but I thought they'd stretch out like the other pair did. I can't win! I'm sitting here, frustrated and uncomfortable, and I can't wait to get home and take these damn things off. I almost want to take the two pairs apart and put the panel part on the small legs. They only thing that's stopping me though, is if it doesn't work the way I want it to, I don't want to ruin $60 worth of jeans (that I paid full price for!). I just want to be comfortable and look good. Is that too much to ask?? Enough about my clothing problems.
Two weekends ago we "came out" and it was the scariest thing I've ever done in my life. It went well and I wasn't expecting a bad reaction, but I was so scared that we'd tell and then something would go wrong. I've definitely gotten my money's worth out of the doppler! I used it every day for a week after we told everyone. So nerve wracking! We gave each of the grandmas-to-be a picture and a count down calendar.
We told my parents first and both my mom and dad were very happy for us. This will be the first grandchild on this side. Next we told FIL and KJ's step mom and we got the best reaction from her. She was over the moon thrilled! They were just so happy for us and it made me feel great! This will be the first grandchild on this side, too. Step mom said she's already stared on a baby quilt. Last we told MIL and KJ's step dad. Now, if you remember from previous posts, step dad is a real douchcanoe. MIL opened up the picture first and didn't really get it so she showed it to step dad. The first thing that came out of he mouth was, "Well that can't be (SIL) because she's not married." Ok, #1 what does being married have to do with having a baby? And #2 why the hell would we be giving them a picture of SIL????? He's such an idiot! Anyways, once MIL understood what we were telling her she was very happy. I wish we could have just told her by herself, but what's done is done. Everyone knows now, we even came out on FB, and LO still has a HB, so things are going well.
Here's our four month bump picture. First we tried going with snowflakes for January, and even though Colby-Jack made it a pretty cute picture, it looked silly. KJ suggested a scarf instead, and I thought that looked much better.
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
Good Day Sunshine
We had our NT scan this afternoon and things could not have gone better! We got to see our little munchkin swimming around in there, which was just awesome. S/he is really starting to look like a baby rather than a cute little blob. Our u/s tech was very nice and she pointed out a bunch of things. We got to see the spine, heart, brain, little footsies and hands. LO was kicking away in there, so that should be fun in a few more weeks! Before we started the scan, the tech was a little worried because we were going in so late. My doctor is going by my LMP which makes me 13w5d instead of going by my O date which makes me 13w3d. The tech said if LO measured too big they wouldn't be able to get an accurate reading for the NT. S/he was actually measuring ahead at 14w, but going by length we were still ok for the test. I'm still not sure how that worked out, but I'll take it. She also wasn't allowed to tell us the measurement, so we'll get those results with the b/w back in a week or so. When she took neck measurement I saw on the screen .7something, but that just seemed too small. I've read anything under 3 is good, but that the bigger they grow the bigger the measurment is. So, we'll just have to wait and see. For now, I'm just happy we got to see LO growing and kicking away! I'm so incredible grateful!
I guess I can't officially call myself in the 2nd tri now!
Here's our little munchkin!!
After our scan KJ and I went out to dinner to celebrate. We went to Olive Garden and had an amazing dinner. After Christmas KJ was on the search for a tablet and the one he wanted everyone was out of. Thanks to Google shopping, though, we found out Toys R Us sold it and still had some in stock (who knew they sold electronics like that??). When we went to but it we also found out they were running a special, buy any tablet over $250 and get a $50 gift card back. Awesome deal! So KJ got his tablet and I got $50 free! Anyways, after dinner we went to Toys R Us to use my gift card. So fun! I found a nice diaper bag, a towl and washcloth set, and a rattle. It felt so good to buy things and know that I'll actually get to use them in the near future. It was a wonderful day!
Oh and we also stopped at Old Navy and found another cute Christmas out fit on clearance.
Good day sunshine!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
PS. We have out anatomy scan scheduled for February 6!! It's hard to believe in a months time we'll be able to find out if LO is a boy or girl!
I guess I can't officially call myself in the 2nd tri now!
Here's our little munchkin!!
After our scan KJ and I went out to dinner to celebrate. We went to Olive Garden and had an amazing dinner. After Christmas KJ was on the search for a tablet and the one he wanted everyone was out of. Thanks to Google shopping, though, we found out Toys R Us sold it and still had some in stock (who knew they sold electronics like that??). When we went to but it we also found out they were running a special, buy any tablet over $250 and get a $50 gift card back. Awesome deal! So KJ got his tablet and I got $50 free! Anyways, after dinner we went to Toys R Us to use my gift card. So fun! I found a nice diaper bag, a towl and washcloth set, and a rattle. It felt so good to buy things and know that I'll actually get to use them in the near future. It was a wonderful day!
Oh and we also stopped at Old Navy and found another cute Christmas out fit on clearance.
Good day sunshine!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
PS. We have out anatomy scan scheduled for February 6!! It's hard to believe in a months time we'll be able to find out if LO is a boy or girl!
Monday, December 26, 2011
Merry Christmas to Me!
On Christmas day we hit 12 weeks! I can't believe I've made it this far! The best present I received this year was hearing LO's HB on the doppler Christmas morning. I'm getting so excited about this baby! It's getting more and more real with each passing week. We might actually have a baby July!
Here is my three month bump picture from Sunday. (We're obviously holiday themed!)
I'm starring to get a tiny bump. I know it isn't all bloat because it hasn't gone away since about week 7. KJ says it's most obvious when I'm laying down.
KJ and I went out after Christmas shopping today. We got about 10 rolls of wrapping paper, 10 packs of holiday paper plates, napkins, cards, and gift tags all for 1/2 price. I love a good sale! We also found some other things on sale: My very first purchase for LO!
We went to Target and I tried on some maternity jeans. They were still pretty big on me so I think I'm going to wait another month and revisit them. I picked up a BeBand instead. My regular jeans are getting tight, but I'm not sure how much I'm going to like it. I bought the small/medium size because by the sizing chart that's what I should be. I tried it on tonight, though, and it seems really tight. I guess I'll just have to wear it around and see how I like it.
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Here is my three month bump picture from Sunday. (We're obviously holiday themed!)
I'm starring to get a tiny bump. I know it isn't all bloat because it hasn't gone away since about week 7. KJ says it's most obvious when I'm laying down.
KJ and I went out after Christmas shopping today. We got about 10 rolls of wrapping paper, 10 packs of holiday paper plates, napkins, cards, and gift tags all for 1/2 price. I love a good sale! We also found some other things on sale: My very first purchase for LO!
We went to Target and I tried on some maternity jeans. They were still pretty big on me so I think I'm going to wait another month and revisit them. I picked up a BeBand instead. My regular jeans are getting tight, but I'm not sure how much I'm going to like it. I bought the small/medium size because by the sizing chart that's what I should be. I tried it on tonight, though, and it seems really tight. I guess I'll just have to wear it around and see how I like it.
Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Friday, December 16, 2011
One Year Ago Today
One year ago today my world came crashing down around me. It was our second pg and I should have been 10w6d. KJ and I went in for an u/s and found our LO was gone. Heartbroken doesn't even begin to describe how I felt. I was so angry and upset that this had happened to us again. What did we do to deserve this? At that point I didn't know if I would ever heal from the pain I felt. I remember sitting on the couch that night doing shots of vodka so I would just stop feeling...
Today, though, surprisingly has been a good day. I woke up this morning and decided to give the doppler another go. I had got it in the mail on Monday and wasn't able to hear LO's HB that night and got pretty discouraged. The PgAL ladies told me to put it away for a couple days and try again later. So, that's what I did. With in five minuets of trying this morning I had found it! "Squish, squish, squish, squish, squish, squish" Best sound ever!! It was a very different sound than my own HB (I had gotten pretty good at finding that!) which was a slow "squish, squish... squish, squish... squish, squish".
Hearing LO's HB has made all the difference. I was prepared to have a really down day. Just knowing, though, that today of all days, my baby has a HB, it's the most wonderful and comforting thing I could ask for. I'm tearing up as I wright this! Geez these pg hormones! This LO might have a shot after all...
I will always love and miss my lost LO's, but today, I'm ok. Finally!
Here comes the sun, and I say, it's alright...
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Today, though, surprisingly has been a good day. I woke up this morning and decided to give the doppler another go. I had got it in the mail on Monday and wasn't able to hear LO's HB that night and got pretty discouraged. The PgAL ladies told me to put it away for a couple days and try again later. So, that's what I did. With in five minuets of trying this morning I had found it! "Squish, squish, squish, squish, squish, squish" Best sound ever!! It was a very different sound than my own HB (I had gotten pretty good at finding that!) which was a slow "squish, squish... squish, squish... squish, squish".
Hearing LO's HB has made all the difference. I was prepared to have a really down day. Just knowing, though, that today of all days, my baby has a HB, it's the most wonderful and comforting thing I could ask for. I'm tearing up as I wright this! Geez these pg hormones! This LO might have a shot after all...
I will always love and miss my lost LO's, but today, I'm ok. Finally!
Here comes the sun, and I say, it's alright...
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Monday, December 5, 2011
And I don't have Chicken Pox!
Woo hoo!
To recap the saga: when we started IF testing at the beginning of October my doctor tested me for chicken pox, as a routine thing they check for. It came up positive, even though I didn't have any symptoms. I had it rechecked a few weeks later and it came up positive a second time. Shortly after that I found out I was pg again and then it became a whole new ball game. Chicken pox while pg can be all kinds of bad (birth defects and other scary complications). I saw an infectious diseases doctor at the beginning of November who didn't spiciaze in pg women. She basically told me, "Well you're pg now so I can't do anything for you!". I had it check a third time a couple weeks ago and I'm still postitive...
Well, long story short I saw a MFM doctor today at McGee Women's Hospital. She was very nice and said that the test my OB was using (testing for IgM) is notorious for getting false positives. She consulted with a different infectious diseases doctor who specializes in pg women (also at McGee) and they went over all of my labs in depth. They're both very confident I've been getting false positives and do not have chicken pox! Yay!
It feels so good to get this resolved and not have to worry about it any more!
Since KJ and I had taken the whole day off work, we decided to make our time in the city worth while and went to Ikea. Love! We browsed the baby section and saw so many things I want to get! If we have a boy we're planning on a jungle themed nursery and if it's a girl we'll do a garden theme. They have these big canopy-like leafs that I just love!
We also looked at the cribs and dresser/ changing table combos. Our future nursery is a pretty small room, so non-bulky and duel purpose pieces are a must. It seems like all the cribs at Target and BRU are these huge tanker things. I mean, I definitely want something sturdy, but I feel like you can still have that without all the bulk. That's why I like the Ikea ones. It doesn't look like there's much to them, but they feel really sturdy and durable.
Hensvik crib
(I can't believe I'm debating about cribs! I'm only 9 weeks! Crazy girl KJ's coming out again!)
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
To recap the saga: when we started IF testing at the beginning of October my doctor tested me for chicken pox, as a routine thing they check for. It came up positive, even though I didn't have any symptoms. I had it rechecked a few weeks later and it came up positive a second time. Shortly after that I found out I was pg again and then it became a whole new ball game. Chicken pox while pg can be all kinds of bad (birth defects and other scary complications). I saw an infectious diseases doctor at the beginning of November who didn't spiciaze in pg women. She basically told me, "Well you're pg now so I can't do anything for you!". I had it check a third time a couple weeks ago and I'm still postitive...
Well, long story short I saw a MFM doctor today at McGee Women's Hospital. She was very nice and said that the test my OB was using (testing for IgM) is notorious for getting false positives. She consulted with a different infectious diseases doctor who specializes in pg women (also at McGee) and they went over all of my labs in depth. They're both very confident I've been getting false positives and do not have chicken pox! Yay!
It feels so good to get this resolved and not have to worry about it any more!
Since KJ and I had taken the whole day off work, we decided to make our time in the city worth while and went to Ikea. Love! We browsed the baby section and saw so many things I want to get! If we have a boy we're planning on a jungle themed nursery and if it's a girl we'll do a garden theme. They have these big canopy-like leafs that I just love!
We also looked at the cribs and dresser/ changing table combos. Our future nursery is a pretty small room, so non-bulky and duel purpose pieces are a must. It seems like all the cribs at Target and BRU are these huge tanker things. I mean, I definitely want something sturdy, but I feel like you can still have that without all the bulk. That's why I like the Ikea ones. It doesn't look like there's much to them, but they feel really sturdy and durable.
Hensvik crib
(I can't believe I'm debating about cribs! I'm only 9 weeks! Crazy girl KJ's coming out again!)
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Monday, November 28, 2011
I Have a Baby in Me!!
We had our second u/s this morning. I was so incredibly nervous before hand. I was so sure we weren't going to get good news. I guess I've just gotten used to getting bad news that I assume it will happen every time. But the app could not have gone better! Such a relief! I'm so happy I feel like crying!
My doctor started out with the usual "how do you feel" stuff. He said it's a very good sign I've been having ms since I really didn't have it last time. He did an internal exam and said my ute felt excellent! Huge sigh of relief right there. Then, we saw the tech who did the u/s (she's always so nice and cheery!). Right away we saw our LO with a little flicking HB. S/he is measuring 8w1d, which going by my O date is dead on. Our official EDD is 7/8/12, which is what I thought, but it's nice to have the conformation. LO is 1.7cm long and has a heart rate of 174!! My baby has a HB!!
Our next app will be the NT scan. I'll be 12w on Christmas day and of corse my doctor is going to be out of town that week, so we have to wait until Janurary 4 when I'll be 13w3d. We were planning on announcing on New Years at midnight, but it looks like that will have to wait now. I'm just not comfortable announcing until after the scan. It's a small inconvenience, though! I'm just happy that there's a little peanut in me! We were only going to see KJ's dad and family at New Years, so we were going to have to make the rounds again to his mom's and my family anyways. A little disappointing, but certainly not the end of the world. I just hope KJ doesn't try to talk me into announcing anyways...
Before our app, all I could think was that I was in the exact same spot I was in last year at this time. I was ~8w and we went in the Monday after Thanksgiving for an u/s (our first) and found out our LO wasn't growing properly. S/he only measured 6w and by the time we went back to check on growth, our LO was gone. There are so many similarities on the time line with my current pg and last years, it's so hard not to compare. One thing that isn't similar, though, is that I have a, so far, healthy 8w baby with a HB. Even though I was pg for longer with the last, this is the most actually pg I've ever been. Milestone!!
It seems so long until our next app! I have to wait all the way til next year. One good thing, though, is that the holidays will be much better this year than last. I have to admit, I was decorating the house for Christmas this weekend and I couldn't help but think about how broken hearted I was when I put all of those decorations away last January. This has been a hard year all around, with the MC that never ended and both KJ and I lossing a grandfather. 2012 will be much better, I just know it! A year of new beginnings!
This was me on Sunday: 2 months!! (We're fall themed for November, if you couldn't tell!)
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
My doctor started out with the usual "how do you feel" stuff. He said it's a very good sign I've been having ms since I really didn't have it last time. He did an internal exam and said my ute felt excellent! Huge sigh of relief right there. Then, we saw the tech who did the u/s (she's always so nice and cheery!). Right away we saw our LO with a little flicking HB. S/he is measuring 8w1d, which going by my O date is dead on. Our official EDD is 7/8/12, which is what I thought, but it's nice to have the conformation. LO is 1.7cm long and has a heart rate of 174!! My baby has a HB!!
Our next app will be the NT scan. I'll be 12w on Christmas day and of corse my doctor is going to be out of town that week, so we have to wait until Janurary 4 when I'll be 13w3d. We were planning on announcing on New Years at midnight, but it looks like that will have to wait now. I'm just not comfortable announcing until after the scan. It's a small inconvenience, though! I'm just happy that there's a little peanut in me! We were only going to see KJ's dad and family at New Years, so we were going to have to make the rounds again to his mom's and my family anyways. A little disappointing, but certainly not the end of the world. I just hope KJ doesn't try to talk me into announcing anyways...
Before our app, all I could think was that I was in the exact same spot I was in last year at this time. I was ~8w and we went in the Monday after Thanksgiving for an u/s (our first) and found out our LO wasn't growing properly. S/he only measured 6w and by the time we went back to check on growth, our LO was gone. There are so many similarities on the time line with my current pg and last years, it's so hard not to compare. One thing that isn't similar, though, is that I have a, so far, healthy 8w baby with a HB. Even though I was pg for longer with the last, this is the most actually pg I've ever been. Milestone!!
It seems so long until our next app! I have to wait all the way til next year. One good thing, though, is that the holidays will be much better this year than last. I have to admit, I was decorating the house for Christmas this weekend and I couldn't help but think about how broken hearted I was when I put all of those decorations away last January. This has been a hard year all around, with the MC that never ended and both KJ and I lossing a grandfather. 2012 will be much better, I just know it! A year of new beginnings!
This was me on Sunday: 2 months!! (We're fall themed for November, if you couldn't tell!)
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)