In 40 hours I will have an outside baby! I can't believe we're so close. KJ and I have been dreaming of this for two and a half years now. We decided to start trying for a baby way back in January of 2010 and started actively trying in February. It was a much longer and harder journey than we ever anticipated, but here we are, hours away from meeting our daughter. It was worth it. All of the heartache, all of the unbearably sad days, every BFN, every tear. It was worth it.
After waiting all of this time, you'd think I'd feel ready to have this baby! I'm very ready, but very nervous. On the one hand I can't wait to give birth and get this little girl out of me. She's getting incredibly heavy and I want my body back! On the other hand, though, I'm worried I won't know how to take care of her. What if I have trouble breast feeding? What if I mess up and don't feed her often enough? What if I have no idea why she's crying and can't get her to stop? What if I'm a complete mess physically and mentally and totally fail at caring for her? What if I'm an awful mother? I suddenly have the urge to keep her baking for as long as possible!!! Don't take her out yet! It's a big scary world out here and she's just a helpless little thing. I'm scared for the both if us.
"In a little while surely you'll be mine. In a little while I'll be there. In a little while this hurt will hurt no more. I'll be home, love.
Slow down my beating heart. Slowly, slowly, love...
See that girl? That girl, she's mine."
Nerves aside, I could be more excited and happy to meet my daughter. 40 hours and counting...
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Friday, June 15, 2012
A post for Bumps
I've been slacking on my bump pic sharing, so here they all are!
April 13 - 27w5d
May 12 (KJ's birthday) 31w6d We were coming home after a wedding
May 13 (my birthday!) 32w - 8 Month bump
May 18 - 32w5d
June 1 - 34w5d
June 10 - 36w 9 months!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
April 13 - 27w5d
May 12 (KJ's birthday) 31w6d We were coming home after a wedding
May 13 (my birthday!) 32w - 8 Month bump
May 18 - 32w5d
June 1 - 34w5d
June 10 - 36w 9 months!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
We have an Eviction Date!
We have an eviction date!
Yesterday I had the first of my weekly apps. I had my strep B test and my first internal check (fun, fun). I'm not dilated at all and Lexi is still breach. *le sigh* It doesn't look like she's going to flip on her own, so my doctor scheduled me for a c-section. We go in bright and early on Friday, June 29. Yikes!! I'm going to have a baby by the end of the month! Holy cow!
My last day of work will be the 27. KJ and I (mostly me) have to go in the hospital on the 28 for a "c-section meeting". I guess we get to meet the anesthesiologist and talk about what all is going to happen. I guess from reading online I get the general gist of what will happen, so I feel pretty prepared already without the meeting.
I'm not really looking forward to the recovery. I was really hoping to get back to running ASAP, but it looks like I will have to wait until 6w pp. I'm bummed, but I'll do whatever I have to do to get Lexi here safely. It's already been 10 months, what's another 6 weeks. At least I can start dieting right away! I don't want to keep this weight on any longer then I have to. I was pretty over weight in college, and I lost 35lbs the year I graduated and got married. I refuse to go through life uncomfortable, unhappy, and just plain fat. I'm going to get my body back.
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Yesterday I had the first of my weekly apps. I had my strep B test and my first internal check (fun, fun). I'm not dilated at all and Lexi is still breach. *le sigh* It doesn't look like she's going to flip on her own, so my doctor scheduled me for a c-section. We go in bright and early on Friday, June 29. Yikes!! I'm going to have a baby by the end of the month! Holy cow!
My last day of work will be the 27. KJ and I (mostly me) have to go in the hospital on the 28 for a "c-section meeting". I guess we get to meet the anesthesiologist and talk about what all is going to happen. I guess from reading online I get the general gist of what will happen, so I feel pretty prepared already without the meeting.
I'm not really looking forward to the recovery. I was really hoping to get back to running ASAP, but it looks like I will have to wait until 6w pp. I'm bummed, but I'll do whatever I have to do to get Lexi here safely. It's already been 10 months, what's another 6 weeks. At least I can start dieting right away! I don't want to keep this weight on any longer then I have to. I was pretty over weight in college, and I lost 35lbs the year I graduated and got married. I refuse to go through life uncomfortable, unhappy, and just plain fat. I'm going to get my body back.
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Monday, June 11, 2012
Prepping for Alexis
I just love using her name! KJ and I (well, mostly me!) have been in full nesting mode lately. I have this need to get everything done *now*.
My mom had a second mini shower for me on Saturday to help fill in the necessities. It was very helpful! We got quite a few useful things: bath tub, hand breast pump, bottles, socks, spoons, and a carrier, just to name a few. My Grandma also gave us money to buy the stroller with! I'm so excited!
As I mentioned before, the past few weekends I've been yard saleing baby clothes like crazy. I *think* I have a a pretty good stash built up now. I know I need more 12m sleepers and probably more stretchy pants (to accommodate a fluffy but), but other then that, I think I'm good. I also found a second pack n play at a yard sale that we'll use for at MIL house. It's in great condition and was a steal at $25!
KJ and I went shopping on Sunday to fill in the rest of what we need and to use my registry completion coupons. I think we did pretty well. I also made orders on Amazon, Target, and BRU. We needed a second base for the car seat and it was only available online at Target. The breast pump I wanted was out of stock at the BRU store and it was $30 less online. The only thing we didn't get were baby gates, but I have a 20% off coupon that's good for next week, so we'll get those then. Everything else is being shipped! I love getting packages in the mail!
Here are some pictures from the shower:
A blanket made by my sister
Some sleepers from Grandpa
A carrier
A vaporizer
A blanket made by my aunt
Bottles
Bathtub
Ice cream cake!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
My mom had a second mini shower for me on Saturday to help fill in the necessities. It was very helpful! We got quite a few useful things: bath tub, hand breast pump, bottles, socks, spoons, and a carrier, just to name a few. My Grandma also gave us money to buy the stroller with! I'm so excited!
As I mentioned before, the past few weekends I've been yard saleing baby clothes like crazy. I *think* I have a a pretty good stash built up now. I know I need more 12m sleepers and probably more stretchy pants (to accommodate a fluffy but), but other then that, I think I'm good. I also found a second pack n play at a yard sale that we'll use for at MIL house. It's in great condition and was a steal at $25!
KJ and I went shopping on Sunday to fill in the rest of what we need and to use my registry completion coupons. I think we did pretty well. I also made orders on Amazon, Target, and BRU. We needed a second base for the car seat and it was only available online at Target. The breast pump I wanted was out of stock at the BRU store and it was $30 less online. The only thing we didn't get were baby gates, but I have a 20% off coupon that's good for next week, so we'll get those then. Everything else is being shipped! I love getting packages in the mail!
Here are some pictures from the shower:
A blanket made by my sister
Some sleepers from Grandpa
A carrier
A vaporizer
A blanket made by my aunt
Bottles
Bathtub
Ice cream cake!
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Friday, June 1, 2012
Happy June!
So, since I'm due the first week in July, there's a
definite possibility that I might have a baby by the end of the month!
Yikes! Where has the time gone?? I still have so much to do!
I've been making lists of all the things I feel I need to get done in the next few weeks so I can feel mostly ready. Somethings are important and others ready aren't, but they're all on the list anyhow. When I get stressed I make lists and it helps me feel like I'm making progress.
Stuff to get done:
Pack hospital bag (this is my plan for tonight)
Find a take home outfit
Wash bathroom valance (it's dusty and I stare at it every time I go in there!)
Clean kitchen ceiling (also dusty)
Weed driveway
Send Amanda's b-day card out (her b-day is tomorrow, oops)
Organize guest room (it's become our catch all for baby things we won't need right a way)
Wash diapers (I have to prep some hemp inserts I bought)
Wash rugs
Find a glider rocker
Clean off dresser (my bedroom dresser is a mess)
Set up pack n play in the bedroom (this will require some rearranging)
Make an Amazon order (still waiting on my registry completion coupon for this. Should get it next week)
Then there's the list of necessities that we still need to get. My mom is having a second shower for me on the 9th. In theory, it's supposed to help with these things, but as we saw with the first shower (50 pink onesies, what?!) I'm not holding my breath.
Things I still need:
Extra car seat base (we bought the car seat last weekend because I had a freak out over the fact that we didn't have it yet)
Changing pad and cover
Waterproof mattress cover (have one, but would like a back up)
Bottles (don't have any!)
Baby gates
Sheets for pack n play
Pacifiers
Swaddler (have one, but would like a back up)
Breast pump
Breast milk storage items
Bath tub
Sippy cups
Thermometer
"baby proofing" stuff
I've been yard saleing pretty much every Saturday since the shower on the look out for clothes and gear for MIL's house. My ultimate goal is to yard sale all the clothes we'll need for LG's first year. I know there will be things we'll need here and there, but if I can get the bulk bought now, that would be awesome. I've found a good amount, but there's always something left.
Clothes what I need:
0-3
Kimono shirts
3-6
2 sleepers
4 one piece outfits
6-9
3 one peice outfits
12mo
4 sleepers
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
I've been making lists of all the things I feel I need to get done in the next few weeks so I can feel mostly ready. Somethings are important and others ready aren't, but they're all on the list anyhow. When I get stressed I make lists and it helps me feel like I'm making progress.
Stuff to get done:
Pack hospital bag (this is my plan for tonight)
Find a take home outfit
Wash bathroom valance (it's dusty and I stare at it every time I go in there!)
Clean kitchen ceiling (also dusty)
Weed driveway
Send Amanda's b-day card out (her b-day is tomorrow, oops)
Organize guest room (it's become our catch all for baby things we won't need right a way)
Wash diapers (I have to prep some hemp inserts I bought)
Wash rugs
Find a glider rocker
Clean off dresser (my bedroom dresser is a mess)
Set up pack n play in the bedroom (this will require some rearranging)
Make an Amazon order (still waiting on my registry completion coupon for this. Should get it next week)
Then there's the list of necessities that we still need to get. My mom is having a second shower for me on the 9th. In theory, it's supposed to help with these things, but as we saw with the first shower (50 pink onesies, what?!) I'm not holding my breath.
Things I still need:
Extra car seat base (we bought the car seat last weekend because I had a freak out over the fact that we didn't have it yet)
Changing pad and cover
Waterproof mattress cover (have one, but would like a back up)
Bottles (don't have any!)
Baby gates
Sheets for pack n play
Pacifiers
Swaddler (have one, but would like a back up)
Breast pump
Breast milk storage items
Bath tub
Sippy cups
Thermometer
"baby proofing" stuff
I've been yard saleing pretty much every Saturday since the shower on the look out for clothes and gear for MIL's house. My ultimate goal is to yard sale all the clothes we'll need for LG's first year. I know there will be things we'll need here and there, but if I can get the bulk bought now, that would be awesome. I've found a good amount, but there's always something left.
Clothes what I need:
0-3
Kimono shirts
3-6
2 sleepers
4 one piece outfits
6-9
3 one peice outfits
12mo
4 sleepers
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
Monday, May 28, 2012
2 Years
Two years ago today my life was forever changed. Two
years ago I lost my first baby and became a mom to an angel. I was only
pg for a week, but I loved my baby so much and still do.
Today I remember you, LO. You will always be my first baby. I miss you and love you.
Lots Love,
KJsbabe
Today I remember you, LO. You will always be my first baby. I miss you and love you.
Lots Love,
KJsbabe
Friday, May 4, 2012
April Showers!
I had my baby shower on April 30 and it went
wonderfully! My mom, MIL, and SMIL threw it for me. When they first
suggested having one big joint shower I was a little nervous because MIL
and SMIL don't generally get along. Everything, from the planning to
the actual party, went very smoothly, though. *big sigh of relief!*
The shower was beautiful! It was a flower garden theme, just like the nursery. My almost-SIL (BIL's GF, not official FI yet) made some awesomely beautiful cupcakes. It turned out to be a really nice time.
I had been registry stalking for weeks before hand and was a little nervous that not a lot if things had been bought. We did get quite a few items, though. Mostly clothes with a few useful things here and there. Some big things we got were the pack n play, high chair, swing, stroller accessories, and play gym. Of coarse, having a girl, means EVERYONE wanted to get her a cute little outfit. So, we got about 50 pink onesies, half in 0-3 months and the rest anywhere from 3-12 months. I'm grateful for the clothes, but come on, one little girl can only wear so many things at once. I would have appreciated more useful things over clothes. So, needless to say, I have some returning and exchanging to do...
It was a long day and I was exhausted after words. KJ and I had some friends spending the weekend with us so they could come to the shower. After we got all the gifts home, they wanted to help put everything away. I know they were just trying to be helpful, but I just wanted to take a nap at that point! But, alas, no nap was had. I had to sort through everything right away and decide what we were going to keep and return, and then were to put it all. After about 3 hours everything was put away. What would be a good word for more than exhausted? It was probably the most tired and worn out I've ever been. My bump was burning and my feet were aching. I had to call it quits, and went to bed. I slept for about 4 hours, woke up at about 2am, and couldn't get back to sleep. *sigh* It was a rough weekend! I spent all of Sunday recuperating.
I've very grateful for such a wonderful shower and all of the generous gifts we received for our little girl. Here are some pics!
The Cupcakes
Me!
The loot
Getting ready to open presents
]
Cute little shoes!
Blanket made by SMIL
Everyone was asked to bring a book in lue of a card.
Getting my belly measured
MIL, me, my mom, SMIL
Me and KJ when he came to pick up all of the presents.
The loot once we got home
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
The shower was beautiful! It was a flower garden theme, just like the nursery. My almost-SIL (BIL's GF, not official FI yet) made some awesomely beautiful cupcakes. It turned out to be a really nice time.
I had been registry stalking for weeks before hand and was a little nervous that not a lot if things had been bought. We did get quite a few items, though. Mostly clothes with a few useful things here and there. Some big things we got were the pack n play, high chair, swing, stroller accessories, and play gym. Of coarse, having a girl, means EVERYONE wanted to get her a cute little outfit. So, we got about 50 pink onesies, half in 0-3 months and the rest anywhere from 3-12 months. I'm grateful for the clothes, but come on, one little girl can only wear so many things at once. I would have appreciated more useful things over clothes. So, needless to say, I have some returning and exchanging to do...
It was a long day and I was exhausted after words. KJ and I had some friends spending the weekend with us so they could come to the shower. After we got all the gifts home, they wanted to help put everything away. I know they were just trying to be helpful, but I just wanted to take a nap at that point! But, alas, no nap was had. I had to sort through everything right away and decide what we were going to keep and return, and then were to put it all. After about 3 hours everything was put away. What would be a good word for more than exhausted? It was probably the most tired and worn out I've ever been. My bump was burning and my feet were aching. I had to call it quits, and went to bed. I slept for about 4 hours, woke up at about 2am, and couldn't get back to sleep. *sigh* It was a rough weekend! I spent all of Sunday recuperating.
I've very grateful for such a wonderful shower and all of the generous gifts we received for our little girl. Here are some pics!
The Cupcakes
Me!
The loot
Getting ready to open presents
]Cute little shoes!
Blanket made by SMIL
Everyone was asked to bring a book in lue of a card.
Getting my belly measured
MIL, me, my mom, SMIL
Me and KJ when he came to pick up all of the presents.
The loot once we got home
Lots of Love,
KJsbabe
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